low on fish oil tablets, have three large bottles of chewable vitamin C in the house, got money back from the federal government, toes got numb multiple times, starting to believe i have bad circulation in my legs, found out on the internet that if you want to get a cake from charm city cakes in baltimore, md it will cost you a minimum of a thousand dollars, stabbed myself in the mouth with a toothbrush, i think i figured out what kind of writer i want to be, manifesto!, made really good soup, watched dead poets society, ate 2/3 of a large apple pie (not exaggerating), thought about becoming a vegetarian but the kind that eats lots of salmon, black cat with white feet came to visit me at my window, black cat with black feet came too, saw four cardinals eating seeds in the yard, thought about how lucky we are as manhattanites to have a backyard, felt like i had a special kind of energy that attracted animals, caught a spider behind my bed and let it go free in the basement, filled a bag with clothes to go the goodwill that included clothes i bought from the goodwill, analyzed the bump that feels like bone on my right pinky finger, hoping it’s a harmless cyst, hoping it’s just fluid collecting, why is the cartilage around my sternum so stiff, why does it hurt, hope it’s not arthritis, think i need health insurance, asked myself: why is my Buddha statue so fat?
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The Buddha statue is so fat because it is the Chinese version of Buddha. Asceticism aside, in China fat meant powerful, much like big women used to be sexy because it meant opulence. Quite paradoxical indeed.
Pardon my trigger finger, nay “powerful” – important, respected**
appologies.
how come his hands are in that position??? what is the reason???
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please email me and tell me!!!!! .x