Archive for December, 2008

i love what’s happening.
a ripe kind of madness.
all plump with the right amount of drama and sedation.
don’t call the doctors.


not settling, not compromising any values, not taking whatever i can get because of its convenience.
plain and boring, contemplating the unfamiliarity of the future, of the present, becoming more and more voluntarily detached from the past, all pasts, not just mine, but yours too.
bearing, enduring, solidify, strengthening, hardening, simplifying
out of control, unresistant, in unison with [...]


he doesn’t exist,
because i’m delusional,
exactly how i want to be,
living in a dreamworld,
fantasy,
like fruit picked from a tree,
i can pluck from any imaginary world i want,
i want a physicist,
he’s got a research job,
he makes a lot of money,
he pays the rent,
because i write and make art,
i don’t make money,
he drinks whiskey,
he doesn’t drink whiskey,
not a [...]


i wish my family was strong enough to walk away and turn our backs on this christmas holiday.  we don’t gather for god, gifts, or family.  what are we doing? we’d feel the relief that we’re all yearning for if we just stopped and opened ourselves up into our own paths.  a path of familiar [...]


residue

14Dec08

when will i peel away all the costumes
and what will i find: puppeteer? farmer? astrophysicists? lover of trapeze?
i’ve been bending for a while towards the language but as if i haven’t
passed through it completely.  when does this light bend again?
or can i rely on the archaic fluids of opportunity to open me into halves…
two members [...]



i made you a little sampling of all the things i want to give to you:
a bucket of plants
a vegan hippo
lollies from jupiter
gift card good for one minute with a machete
a rocket ship
nine pregnant lemurs
19th century hosiery
a bloody nose
broken pair of robot arms
a hair cut
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my charbroiled romance


institutions

04Dec08

a week ago i ripped up and completely destroyed the paper copies of almost everything i’ve ever written.  last night i destroyed all of the remaining computer files.
i did it.  i kept only six pieces of writing. 6.
i don’t miss any of it.  i was glad to see it go.
kinda like taking off an eskimo [...]


low on fish oil tablets, have three large bottles of chewable vitamin C in the house, got money back from the federal government, toes got numb multiple times, starting to believe i have bad circulation in my legs, found out on the internet that if you want to get a cake from charm city cakes [...]